My body won't cooperate :/

I have this problem. My body won't go to sleep when it's supposed to and won't wake up when it's supposed to. I was supposed to be up at 6:00 this morning to put my clothes in the dryer that washed overnight so I would have something to wear this morning. Then I planned to lay back down for a bit and get up at 6:30 to get in the shower and get ready to be at my baby sitting job by 7:30........what actually happened? I slept through my 6:00 alarm (via my alarm clock), I slept through my 6:30 alarm (via my cell), and I slept through Colin calling me at 6:28. Then, I woke up about 7:05 ON MY OWN! This is so stinking frustrating.

Another downside to this problem is that I wake up and I'm already frustrated which makes it really hard to get those positive juices flowing.

Oh well, maybe I'll find a solution to this. For now, I'm babysitting. Hoping Neena wakes up soon so we can play =] In the mean time, Colin is back from pt!

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Cider

Up way too late

So it's currently 1:12 AM on the first night, well actually first morning of my "single mom for a weekend" experience. I've done this once before and didn't sleep then either. That being of no benefit to the kids, I knew I needed to try and sleep.....tried and failed. Mostly due to the very loud (must now go check out the window to see what THAT loud noise was) neighbors that keep making me think someone's breaking in.....grr!


Sooo, instead of sleeping, I'm sitting here thinking, about a lot of things really. The future....AHHHHH! Oh man that scared me. Ha, not really I guess. College, boyfriend, marriage, family, life in general. All really scary stuff to think about UNLESS....i remember that God has it all under control =]

Now the only thing I need to freak about is being ready for my final next Thursday. It's my first test in college and it's pass or fail not graded. If I don't pass it, it will totally mess up my plan of study, so basically not passing is NOT AN OPTION. I feel much better after today's study time and class period. Gotta get some more study time in though and we've got one class left.

Well, I'm gonna work on some homework for my other class (that doesn't take as much thought) so when I have time and it's not 1 in the morning, I can focus on studying for my final!

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Cider

Apology and catching up

So my last couple posts have been pathetic and pointless and "age" was not okay.....SORRY!

Life has been okay. I have a lot of friends that have been sick or having problems and that really brings me down no matter how much I try for it not to. I love my friends and I want them all to be happy!

I myself am great. I'm missing Colin more and more everyday.
I'm on day 2 of my plan to work on my eliptical every day. I want to have lost some weight and be in good shape by April so I can look good for my man =] I also just want to be healthier. Being healthy has not been a priority in my life but I know it needs to be so I'm working on changing that!

I have class tonight. We have two more lectures after tonight and then our final next thursday (the 30th)..............AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH! So much pressure. That test is my grade. Needless to say, my priority over the next week is studying and being prepared for that final.

I have Keigan today. He's so much fun to take care of. He's accomplished a two hour nap and is still sleeping....sweet boy. I'm working on being productive. Over the last two hours I have started laundry, cleaned the bathroom, spent 15 minutes on the eliptical, written this, and been on facebook WAAAAAY too much....and I wonder why I'm never productive!

I shall be done writing for now. Need to get a couple more things done before the little man wakes up.

Hope everyone is having a great day!

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Cider

Absolutely positive

My goal lately has been to be more positive. A specific example of this effort being displayed was the other night when I was frustrated with my parents. Instead of being like grrrr....why are they doing this? I was trying to direct my brain to think I'm so blessed to have parents that want to make sure that I'm safe.

So my new thing is counting my blessings instead of complaining. Now, does this always work? NEGATIVE! Check out my last post....full of complaining :/ Notice I say try a lot. It's an effort.


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Cider

Age

I'm at an age where age is annoying. I'm old enough to have responsibilities and freedom of an adult but still young enough to be considered and treated like a kid. Now I suppose this is mostly my doing for choosing to stay at home. My assumation was that my parents would see how responsible I was being with school, work, making my payments, etc and back off. Hasn't happened. I could choose to go get a job and move out but I feel that would be really irresponsible seeing that I need to be really focused on school this fall. It seems to be a lose, lose situation either way so I'm just gonna keep pushing forward and this too shall pass.

Besides the little annoyances in life, things are going great. I absolutely love school. I love my work. I love my friends. I love my boyfriend. What more could I ask for?


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Cider

Someone has been slacking....

Oh I don't even know where to start. I'm sitting in the car shop right now getting my front end aligned and they just imformed me that I need to yet again replace my front tires. I'm quite frustrated with myself because the tires went bad so fast because I put off getting my front end aligned. I really need to learn not to be such a procrastinator. Would've saved me around $150.


Not a whole lot is going on. Got class 2nite which i'm excited for. I'm really enjoying it. I'm having lunch with my mom and a coffee date with Katie today. Love friend time.

I love my boyfriend. I totally can't wait until he's HERE!

I think that's it.

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Cider

Money

Why do we have money? I don't understand. It's a pain in the rear. It restricts life.


GRRRRRR

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Cider

Sleeping

Even though I really enjoy sleeping and do understand the importance of it, I often wish it wasn't needed. Think about how much of our life we spend sleeping (well most of us). Even those of us who spend minimal time sleeping still usually have a catch up day where we waste almost the whole day in bed. The concept frustrates me and I know that it would definitely be healthier just to sleep normal times every night instead of random times here and there......but its funner this way. Shut it, i know funner is not a word! Okay, so off I go on my two hours of sleep to move out of my house sitting job and baby sit 5 kids for the day!

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Cider

The perfect memory

Today was great. Class went well. Got my new book.....160 bucks later.

I was sitting in class and had this thought. What if we had a perfect memory?

1. School would be more efficient. Most of what I'm learning, I was also taught in high school.
2. We wouldn't made mistakes, well more than once.

Just a thought

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Cider

Blaaaah

I feel the slightest urge not to post because I don't really think anyone reads it. But that's not the point. I love expressing myself through writing. Today has been a lazy day so far. I got out of bed at 1. The only thing I regret about this decision is that I missed a chance at a house sitting job but oh well. I think I'm kinda ready to be back home anyway. Colin just called me. He was stuck in the office for lunch cuz everyone else left. I love when I get to talk to him on lunch. Right now, I need to go find something for lunch and get myself cleaned up and do some cleaning around here. I have class tonight. I'm kinda actually excited. I love learning. Just hoping I can get my book and it's not too expensive......

Sry this is boring

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Cider

Falls Creek

Just went and told my brother and the rest of the group going to falls creek good bye. I'm really quite sad that I'm not going. It's a great camp. Oh well, school and work comes first this week. I will get over this sadness. Have fun this week guys!

Full day of baby sititng today then later headed to the college to see about getting the right book for my class! Gonna chill and wait for the kids to get up.

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Cider

Just a thought

I'm laying here at stinking 2 in the morning with so much on my mind that I can't sleep. So, what better a thing to do than to blog!

Here's my thought-
If you have something good, don't let it go.

I know this sounds like nothing special, but seriously. We take so much for granted. If you have something, whether it be a material possession or a relationship or whatever it be, if you have it and you have the slightest thought that it might be good, then hold on to it.

This really is dealing with frustration that i'm having about a current situation but due to the publicness of this blog, I cannot go into any further detail. I'm sorry if this makes no sense. It is 2 in the morning. I need sleep. I think I might try and sleep now.....


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Cider

A Sunday in the life of me

Today, well the last 36 hours have been amazing! I got to spend time with my family yesterday. then I watched some racing. Then my brother came over to stay with me at my "job" we were chilling then we decided we needed to pull an all-nighter to cheer laura up =] so we did. description: insane videos, food, hide and seek (in walmart), reliant K, no sleep, and energy drinks=SO MUCH FUN! Work went smooth this morning and 2nite. Got a nap. Had some good talking time with Laura. Just finished talking to my man and now i'm gonna get some sleep. Nothin much new today. Appreciating Laura's friendship, missing colin, missing anna, lovin life!

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Who had a great day? ME!

Today I slept until 12:30. Got up and got showered and ready. Then I went to the Mill's for dinner and spending time with my family =] I was so happy to finally be with my family and be feeling up to being around people! So after a couple enjoyable hours, I took my dad home which was really nice cuz we got to just chill and talk for like thirty minutes. I love my daddy so much and I don't often get time just with him. So that was very nice. Then I came to my "job" and took the dogs on a twenty minutes walk which felt good and the dogs enjoyed it. Then i just chilled out and downloaded some new music then took a bath then headed home to watch the race DAYTONA baby!!!! Enjoyed it until half way through when the first big wreck happened and took jr out. Then I lost interest, I know sad right....but who cares. Now i'm here with my brother and mac and cheese and a movie and cheesecake stuff we made and lala's coming over later.........amazing day, amazing night. all is amazing =]



I hope everyone had an amazing independence day. I hope you thanked a soldier for their service.


Colin Vertrees, thank you babe. I love you!

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Cider

Yay!

I'm very excited to say that my throat does not hurt at all today and I get to go have dinner with my family. I'm hoping for this to be a fun, happy event =]

Hope everyone has an amazing 4th.
Remember to thank a soldier!

I love my soldier <3

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Cider

There's no other way to say it

Although the first half of my day was fairly boring and mundane, the evening was quite eventful! Laura came over around ten and I made chocolate pancakes which turned out oh so yummy. We then hung out for a couple hours and around midnight started chatting with colin via webcam and phone. What great fun! There was a moment though that almost made me cry. I realized that no matter how much I love my soldier, i will never be a soldier and I will never completely understand everything he's going through and everything he has to deal with mentally, physically, and emotionally. He sang me this song and I can't put it any better than this


John Michael Montgomery
Letters From Home

My Dear Son, it is almost June,
I hope this letter catches up to you, and finds you well
Its been dry but they’re calling for rain,
And everything's the same ol’ same in Johnsonville
Your stubborn 'ol Daddy ain’t said too much,
But I’m sure you know he sends his love,
And she goes on,
In a letter from home
I hold it up and show my buddies,
Like we ain’t scared and our boots ain’t muddy, and they all laugh,
Like there’s something funny bout’ the way I talk,
When I say: "Mama sends her best y’all"
I fold it up an' put it in my shirt,
Pick up my gun an' get back to work
An' it keeps me driving me on,
Waiting on letters from home

My Dearest Love, its almost dawn
I’ve been lying here all night long wondering where you might be
I saw your Mama and I showed her the ring
Man on the television said something so I couldn’t sleep
But I’ll be all right, I’m just missing you
An' this is me kissing youXX’s and OO’s,
In a letter from homeI hold it up and show my buddies,
Like we ain’t scared and our boots ain’t muddy, and they all laugh,
'Cause she calls me "Honey", but they take it hard,
'Cause I don’t read the good parts
I fold it up an' put it in my shirt,
Pick up my gun an' get back to work
An' it keeps me driving me on,
Waiting on letters from home

Dear Son, I know I ain’t written,
But sittin' here tonight, alone in the kitchen, it occurs to me,
I might not have said, so I’ll say it now
Son, you make me proud
I hold it up and show my buddies,
Like we ain’t scared and our boots ain’t muddy, but no one laughs,
'Cause there ain’t nothing funny when a soldier cries
An' I just wipe me eyes
I fold it up an' put it in my shirt,
Pick up my gun an' get back to work
An' it keeps me driving me on,
Waiting on letters from home



Colin Vertrees, I love you and I appreciate everything you do for me and for this country!

Happy Independence Day

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Cider

Travel into my mind

As I sit here thinking about today, my mind wanders to the oddities of life. here goes.

Today consisted of:

1. sleeping until 11:15
2. being woken by my oh so caring mother calling to check on me
3. being awake enough to figure out that I am still sick
4. laying in bed doing nothing but facebooking, blogging, and watching movies and talking to my amazing boyfriend until 6
5. going to water a friend's lawn
6. going to walmart
7. and now here i sit writing.

So....oddities

• why would I ever consider today anything but positive....I slept half of it! I dream most days of sleeping hardly at all.
• yes, I was slightly saddened by the fact that my mother woke me up, but I should be appreciative of the fact that she cared enough to call and check on me
• while being sick is no fun, it again means that i get to do absolutely nothing all day and that I should be appreciative of
• again, a day full of relaxed, enjoyable activity and yet it seems like i complained all day....
• i got to get out of the house and water a lawn. helping a friend and making money. all positive.
• walmart....not great but i did get the needed ingredients for the plan i have after writing this.....making chocolate chips pancakes to share with my amazing friend laura who is being so nice and coming to see me =)
• writing. I never really thought I would enjoy writing but I do. It's an expression of my very interesting, complicated, and often confused brain!

I hope you enjoy reading this. Plz comment!

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Cider

Third of july

It's noon and i'm still laying in bed. I have nothing of any significance to do today except walk the dogs and hopefully see my family. Problem being is that I have glands in my neck that are really swollen and i'm sure no one wants to be around me for fear of catching what I have =[ I don't believe i'm running a fever so that means i'm not contagious....right? I really don't want to spend the day here by myself. What to do....


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Cider

Accomplished

I just finished my first week of computer assignments and it's only thursday, well technically 1 friday morning. It's not due until Sunday. I feel so relieved to not have to worry about it all weekend! I hope everyone has an amazing independence day. I'm very proud of my soldier. Love you babe....plz stay safe!

Figured instead of posting again, I would just update this post. It's now 2:30 Friday morning and while yes it's late and I really should be asleep, I needed to add that on top of finishing my computer homework, I have now also finished my science homework. Don't have anything to worry about until next week....woot!

Going to try and sleep now. Good night all =]

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Cider

Change

I don't like change. I've never adapted well. I accept that this is not a positive quality of mine. I guess this is what I get for growing up living in the same town for 18 years, going to the same church for 18 years, and pretty much living life the same for 18 years. I know it sounds boring, but it works, so why change it? My emotions have enough to handle without everything changing on me.

Okay, I'm done venting. And just to throw out there, I can handle change. I don't like too but I'm mature enough to accept and move one!

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Cider

New at this!

So by inspiration of a friend and pure boredom and a need to ramble/vent, I've decided to start a blog. Now if anyone will actually read this or not, who knows, but oh well!

Topic 1:Colin: I love him. I want him to come back from honduras soon and safely! I love the strength that our relationship is gaining from this distance but I'm so ready for him to be here!

Topic 2:College: I'm taking two classes- Intro to life science and intro to computer imformation. The computer class is online. I had an orientation for it on Monday. I have spent a couple hours the last couple days working on the homework and am really enjoying it so far. I had my first class tonight. The class went well except for the fact that I don't have the right book....grr! Going to have to wait until Monday to exchange my book. Overall, i'm excited and think it will go well.

So i'm currently talking to Anna whom I'm missing very much and I think needs to come back from NC sooner than later! I'm also listening to Colin explain how eating chocolate will help my throat feel better hehe =] I love when my man plays doc for me =] happy one month anniversary babe!

I'm also house sitting, now while I know that this job is so taxing, someone must do it and I accepted the challenge hehehe my mom is often jealous.

So i believe I've written enough for the moment!Thx 4 readin!Cider