Long week

This week was hard. Whether it was having a bad morning due to not feeling well or running late, or to a bad evening due to any multitude of things, I couldn't just seem to have a good day. I was really getting discouraged. Then today was great. I had one minor issue earlier, but for the most part, today was amazing. I got to babysit three really sweet kids, sleep in, got some cleaning done, helped my dad move our exercise machine back inside so hopefully i'll start working out again. It was just a great day. But get this, tonight, I caught myself complaining. I started coughing and breathing hard and i was fixing to update my facebook status griping about not feeling well. Now granted, this would have been valid, but definitely not necessary. So I stopped, gave it some thought, and realized I had major attitude problems this week. My best friend lost her uncle and I'm being negative about over-sleeping. It's just been a real slap in the face and realization that I haven't been doing very well with keeping a positive attitude. Sorry to anyone this has affected.

Well, i suppose that is all :) time to talk with eric for a while then get some sleep. tomorrow is sunday :D

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cider

Jeremiah 5

One huge thing stood out to me in this passage. In verse one, God says "If you can find but one person who deals honestly and seeks the truth, I will forgive this city." ONE PERSON! You know what that says to me? First, my God truly desires to forgive me, to forgive my family, to forgive my nation, to forgive my world. How amazing! Secondly, my God is unimaginable. Who would ever think to forgive a whole group of people based on the honesty of one person. I can't hardly wrap my mind around that (of course thats how its meant to be. I wouldn't feel too confident about a God I could understand.) Thirdly, ONE PERSON! There are so many stinking people on the planet and this verse is telling me that "I", just one little spec, one little me could make a true difference. What if God, right this second, is looking for ONE person in America, one person "who deals honestly and seeks the truth". Would He see me. Would I be the one who would bring forgiveness to this nation. This really made me stop and think.

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Cider

Jeremiah 4

Verses 1-4 is the Lord offering his conditions for Israel and Judah to return to him. Then the rest of the chapter, I can't quite decipher whether it is actually what happens to them or if it is what will happen to them if they don't accept the conditions and return to the Lord. Maybe the next chapter will reveal more on that information.

Sorry it has been a while since I wrote. I'm kind of bad at the whole habit thing. So here is attempt #2 of doing it every day :)

Hope everyone is having a great week. Monday was great for me but Tuesday and Wednesday, not so much. But I'm up on time and this morning is looking great so I'm determined today will be great! Gotta get ready and get to school now.

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Cider

Jeremiah 3

A good portion of this chapter is spent describing Israel's betrayal of God. The other part is spent describing God's choice to accept the Israelites return to him if they chose to do so. Isn't it amazing that no matter how far we stray from God, he ALWAYS accepts us back and want's to forgive us to put us back to work on HIS plan!

Jeremiah 2

I've decided to read through the book of Jeremiah. I have been looking for something to read during my quiet times that would challenge me. At Promise Keepers, one of the speakers talked about how Jeremiah was a rough book to read and how my favorite verse (29:11) is like the only bit of hope shown in the whole book! So, I'm gonna do it. I read chapter one yesterday and was encouraged by God telling Jeremiah that when he messed, God would be right there to rescue him. God didn't promise Jeremiah that he wouldn't mess up. I love it! I love that my God knows I'm not perfect, no matter how hard I try; I also love that I know He will be there to pick me up when I fail, I just have to give it my best shot.

This morning, I read chapter 2. This chapter is pretty much just God very unhappily speaking of Israel turning away from Him after all He had done for them. Now, we often sit here and criticize the Israelites saying "They had everything going for them and all they had to do was follow Christ and they would be all set, but no, they had to do their own thing and look where it got them." BUT don't we as Christians do the same thing. God helps us out and provides and everything and next thing we know, everything is going great and we get to thinkin, I got this, see I've got a handle on my life without acknowledging God's role in it all. Next thing we know, we're falling back into old habits or ignoring the plan God set before us then we fall flat on our faces and wonder where God is. Funny thing is, He was right there the whole time but we take the steering wheel away from Him and try to do it ourselves!

As far as life goes (I know it's been a while since I've posted), everything is great! I love school. I love my family. I love my boyfriend. I don't love how stinkin far away he is from me but we get to see each other the next three weekends so if I can just survive until Thursday, I should be good to go :) I feel really blessed. I also love my church and my church family. God has blessed me with some really awesome ministry oppurtunities and i'm enjoying every minute of it.

Welp, I need to get to class. Not looking forward to this morning. Some of our classmates missed the memo that we weren't allowed to take our lab supplies (most syringes) home yesterday and it's a really big deal so I'm sure we're gonna hear about it. UGH.

Anyhow.....Thx 4 readin!

Cider

Summer 2010: Day 2

Well today was successful, eventful, and fantastic! I got to sleep in again. I looked back from yesterday and I was talking about getting my room clean, still isn't done. Not sure what I got distracted by yesterday. Oh well :] I spent most of the day with my bubs. He took me to Johnny Carino's for lunch. After that, we ran lots of errands, mowed two yards, and worked on his truck. I love spending time with him so much! I know that as we both grow into adulthood, that time is going to be more precious and limited. I found out today that I got A's in all my classes. I feel so accomplished :] my GPA stands at 3.7 which I'm okay with. Matt let me drive dad's truck on the way home tonight....it's a standard. Now I've driven one before but never been good at it. That was....fun. Maybe more funny than fun. We laughed like the whole time, probably too avoid facing the fact that we could die any moment cuz I stunk at it so bad. But we made it home in one piece and had a great time :] I suppose that's about it. Tomorrow- I need to get some cleaning done, will probably help Matt some more on his truck, and will be going to Jump Zone for our 6th grader welcome party. I'm excited to have new kids in my jr. high group this fall!

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Cider

Summer 2010: Day 1

I'm so relieved that it is finally summertime! I'm enjoying my first day out of class :) I've slept in and now I'm just hanging around the house. Fixing to get my room clean, and get all my school stuff packed away. I get to go sell books back today woohoo!!!! I'm not sure how this summer is going to go. I'm trying to get a job. If I don't get one, I will spend the summer housesitting, babysitting, and having fun with friends :) oh and blogging, hopefully everyday.

off to clean my room

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Cider

Oh me oh my!

Good gravyness it has been a long week, but a good week!

Today was pretty great. Got up at 4:30, got scared but my wonderful mother who made me chip-beef gravy for breakfast, had an 8 hr clinical which was.....interesting. Really proved to myself that I want to work in the hospital, maybe even ER.....i need speed! Then I got to baby sit the McCauley's for like an hour and a half, always....eventful :) Then got to surprise Mrs. Katie Weaver with a birthday dinner which was thoroughly enjoyable. Now I'm at work. Just tucked Meme in bed. Going to wait for her to start snoring (so I know she's asleep) then I'm gonna crash. Excited about 1-spending the day with my family tomorrow. 2-seeing matt and his team kick some tulsa bbal rear. 3-celebrating dad's birthday at TED'S!!!! 4-DAYTONA BABY :) aaaahhhhhhh one of the biggest races of the year-let's go racin boys (and girls now)

Little "irked" about selfish people. It really annoys me when people live their life based on the belief that the choices they make only impact them. It can lead to so much hurt and turmoil. One of those situations when u wanna just slap the person in the face and be like hey, wake up, can't you said what you're doing? GRRRRR

Something I've been faced with this week a lot is the whole "single-parent" subject. We talked a lot about it in Human Growth and Development. Issues that stem from it, problems it causes, what we need to be doing to help these people. Now-disclaimer before I sound like an insensitive jerk: I know there are exceptions to every rule. With that being said- IF YOU CHOOSE TO PARTAKE IN "CHILD-MAKING ACTIVITIES", THEN YOU CHOOSE TO ACCEPT THE RESPONSIBILITY OF A CHILD. The end!

It so irks me (yes, irks is my word of the day) that society expects us to feel sorry for these people, and give them special privileges and money and etc.

I'm sorry if this offends anyone but I just know that it is God's plan that two people get married, make babies, and raise those babies together-in that order. Anything going against that is going to cause problems, so if you go against it, be ready to own up to the problem and don't expect everyone to fix it for you.

Wow, sorry guys but I needed to vent!

Sad about the death in the Olympics practice today.

Um, I'm out of random thoughts.

I miss my bestie.

Kinda sad thinkin about a lost friend.

Guess I wasn't really out of random thoughts, maybe i am now.

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Cider

COMMENTS WELCOME :)

Again

Again, I am extremely exhausted.

Yesterday was good. Church was great. I love teaching my jr high kids. Had a great chat with a friend last night. Also realized that I missed anna banana-my bestie very very very much.

Today was long but good. I'm fixing to go to sleep so I can get up at 4:30 and leave for clinicals, my first "nursing experience", at 5:30. Shall be a long, grand day!

Tomorrow is my daddy's birthday :)

Going to Tulsa on Saturday to see Matt and his team kick some butt and then go eat at Ted's for daddy's bday.

Okay, sorry this was short but I need sleep.

Good night

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Cider

Not sure thoughts can equal words tonight so this could be interesting

It has been a very long day and I only slept four hours last night. I'm debating if I really want to even try this tonight.

I think I might just go to sleep and do this tomorrow.

Good night!

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Cider

Great day

I've had a pretty great day. I came to work about 5:30. Meme's granddaughter Sarah, who is my age was here and we sat and talked for like four hours (mostly about boys lol)

Now she's gone home and we got meme all tucked into bed so its time for me to catch up on facebook and do homework.

Hope everyone had a great day

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Cider

Snow day

Well I got the day off I was hoping for, a day late, but I'll still take it. I slept till 11 when my brother oh so nicely felt the need to wake me up to tell me our phones weren't working (dad forgot to pay the bill). I was like, did you really just wake me up to tell me that? I was sleeping aka I didn't need my phone! Oh well, I suppose I needed to be up anyhow. I'm fixing to get a shower and do some cleaning and studying until its time to go see Meme and stay with her tonight :)

I was just reading the Haiti blog. I'm so thankful Mr. Paul and the team were able to go down there and provide some relief for those people. I can't even imagine.

Well I suppose that's it for now.

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Cider

What a day

My day started at 3:30 this morning. I woke up to meme calling for assistance (over the baby monitor). I got help her and before i get in back in bed, I look outside. it was snowing, hard! So, assuming they would be cancelling school, i push my alarm back to 5:45. It was at 5 so I could get up and study for the test I had put off studying for because I was thoroughly convinced we would be out of school today (stupid weather predictions). So I sleep until 7 and wake up to find that school hadn't been cancelled. Saaaaaad story! So i get up, get ready, and start studying. I get to school, skip my first class so i can study, go to english, study more then 12:30 comes around. Test time, I'm still sitting there praying that they cancel school cuz its snowing hard out but the stupid temp wasnt low enough. Not sure I passed the test. Thank goodness we have a drop test. Teacher decided not to lecture after the test so we could go home, so i go to the bank, got lunch, and then went home and took a three hour nap. then had dinner. then went to babysit for the Ash family. Good times. Neena is too sweet! Then they brought me chocolate cake back from dinner which was suuuuuuper yum! Now i've just been home spendin time with my family and on facebook and talkin to friends.

So in summary- it was a good day except maybe the test part but now i know how to study for the next test.

Wondering if we'll have class tomorrow. The temp is down to 27 and its still snowing. So we shall see. If we don't have class, I'm going to use the day to get ahead on some reading and work on a couple of "long-term" english papers, you know those ones they give you the assignment way ahead of time in hopes that you won't wait until the night before to finish it.

I'm thinking of starting a diet. I've worn through four pairs of jeans in the last couple months. I do better at working out than controlling me eating but i really dont have time to work out. It just takes so much work to do either one. I just try to be content with how and I am but be aware of what I'm eating and work out when I can.

I guess I'm heading to bed (assuming we'll have class tomorrow).

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Cider

Top News

Here are the highlights of my day:

1. I love my job.
2. I love my other job and the babies I get to take care of at that job :)
3. I got to teach two year olds about God being in the burning bush. That was exciting.
4. I went to a superbowl party. Could care less about the game, but glad i got see my family and all those other people I call family.
5. Came back to work and finished watching the superbowl. Im down with the saints winning. If I don't care, I always root for the underdog so that was cool.
6. I got paid. Always a good thing.
7. It's going to snow which for once, and probably only once, i'm grateful.
8. I ordered a case for my phone which is really good cuz one of these days, dropping it is gonna be bad if i dont.
9. I'm out of things to say and need to get a shower and get to studying in case we do have class tomorrow.

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Cider

Confusion

My heart wants to love him but my head knows whats best but my head is having trouble pulling my heart on its side. I'm so sick of this feeling.

Blah!

This week is starting to catch up with me! I'm exhausted. I'm cramping and my back hurts. Gotta refine my technique for helping Meme out of her chair so it doesn't bother my back.

Okay, my whining is done.

I'm continually amazed at how God blesses me daily. He's so present in my life. And then I wonder how I can so easily ignore Him???! I'm so much happier when I'm living how he wants me too!

God's really been "molding" me in my walk with him. I've made choices and done things and now he's refining me into who He needs me to be and sometimes it just hurts! This video explains it well, check it out: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UXut0HxncvY

Ugh, i just opened a can of worms with a friend and now its awkward!

Okay guys, i'm done rambling.

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Cider

Another day, a new beginning

Isn't God great? I sure do believe he is! I've been "on the job" for 12 hours and have enjoyed every minute of it. I got to meet a lot of the Cover family tonight. Such joyful and humorous people! Meme got to come home today which was a huge blessing. She was tired of being in the hospital. So, I got her all bedded down about 45 minutes ago. Just relaxing in "my room". They already consider me a part of the family!

Well I'm going to take some time to study. Will be up with meme a couple of times through out the night so gotta be wise with my time so i get some sleep.

Hope everyone had an amazing day! Anyone see those gynormous snow flakes fallin earlier? They were so beautiful.

Good night all

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Cider

Where I am

Have you ever been in one of those positions where you're watching someones life and they're fighting and struggling with something and you see the obvious answer but you know if you say something, they'll blow you off like you're out of your mind. Yeah, that's where I'm at. And it sucks :( oh well, im sure many of my friends have been there with me before cuz i get myself in those situations often.

I started my new job tonight. Such tough work. I got out of class early, like an hour early so i went and got cappuchino and then headed up to the hospital to stay with sweet Meme. I got here and we've watch ronny floyd on tv and then the news and then she got herself ready for bed with only minor assistance from me. then the nurses came in and did their thing and now i've been sitting here as she sleeps oh so soundly. I studied one of three chapters for my micro test next week. but mostly i've been on facebook. thinkin about puttin on a netflix movie and tryin to get some sleep. doubt i'll really sleep much in here. but i need to sleep some since i'll be either here, or at meme's house if she gets to go home tomorrow, not home. maybe even saturday night as well.

God is good :)

night all

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Cider

OOOOOPS

I've been such a slacker. I looked back and I haven't updated this in four months. Crazyness. Those four months have been interesting. I made it through my first semester of college with 2 A's, 1 B, and a C (don't get me started on that one). I just started my second semester three weeks ago or so. I'm carrying 17 hours which is ridiculous and very overwhelming sometimes but it'll all be worth it when I get into nursing school and can just focus on my nursing classes!

God's been working in my life in a couple pretty big ways lately. As always, I've always depended on him to provide my income. I feel like my main priority on the job front should be my nursery job which pays the car payment every month. I have to have something above and beyond that to pay for insurance, gas, food, etc. This is something I've never had to worry about. Whether its cleaning someone's house or baby sitting or dog sitting or house sitting, whatever it is, He never fails to provide for me. From this experience, I've learned to never worry, just wait and watch! Well here I am again. I haven't worked in like two weeks. Have had no "successful" calls for anything. Had a couple interviews here, offers there, but nothing that would work. So here I am at the beginning of this week: sick, tired, overwhelmed by school, and down to enough money to pay for the car payment, insurance, one tank of gas, and food for the week. Every night I sit down and remind myself that I'm trusting God. It's all his money anyhow. Now lets back up a little bit. Last week my mom came home and said she had gotten a call from my Kindergarten teacher Mrs. Pehosh whose mom has cancer. they were looking for someone to help take care of her. Long story short, I met with the family tonight and they want me to start after I get out of class tomorrow night. I will stay with their mom, who is currently in the hospital, tomorrow night through saturday afternoon at least. Such a blessing. God never fails to amaze me. Not only am I regaining a source of income "just in the nick of time" well actually just in God's timing, but I'm also going to be able to start using these basic nursing skills i'm learning!

Okay, so second way God as been working. A few years back, I surrendered to a calling to ministry. At the time, I didn't specify which ministry. My mom always kinda thought I would be a missionary and dad always thought i'd be a preacher's wife (or maybe its the other way around lol). Anyhow, I always kind of assumed that my ministry would be with children since I've had a heart to work with children since I was old enough to not be considered a child anymore. I've served in many different areas over the years from Sunday school and children's church to most recently working in the nursery every Sunday. I enjoy it. Well one area I basically "told" God that i never wanted to work in was youth ministry. Youth have always bugged me. Even when I was one, it bugged me, heck I bugged myself. Well at the beginning of 2009, I started semi sponsoring in our youth group because I was too old to be considered a youth any more but i still wanted to be down there. Really it didn't change much. On occasion I would lead a small group here and there or something like that or get "put in charge" when andrew, our youth pastor left the room. Then last summer, I was having a conversation with andrew about how i was still enjoying working in the nursery but that took up so much time that i was missing being in actual ministry. A couple weeks later, he asked me if I wanted to start working with the jr high kids. I was a little hesitant at first because those kids can really be a handful sometimes but since it was just helping with games, I decided it would be okay. As last year went on, I started sitting in on their lesson time and eventually, Andrew asked me to lead the small group discussion after he finished teaching. So I went along with this and actually started to enjoy these kids. yeah, they're hyper but then again I can be too. Well a couple weeks ago, he asked me if I wanted to teach a lesson for him. I said sure, why not, didnt really give it too much thought. Well after that, I enjoyed it so much that he offered to let me teach every week. Tonight was my third night of teaching and I absolutely love it! I'm building relationships with these kids. They inspire me to walk closer with Christ so I can be an example to them.

God has quite the sense of humor :)

Well its been a long of week of studying and fighting a cold off. I start this new job tomorrow, and have class, and hopefully will be going to see the doc so I can get rid of this cold so i should probably end this here and call it a night!

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Cider